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Computer Viruses, I Hate You.

May 15, 2008 · Filed Under Life

Obviously I have not been updating this site as much as I used to nor as much as I should be and the reason for that is the dreaded computer virus.

For the past three days I noticed that my Firefox has been acting incredibly weird, I couldn’t look at pictures because apparently every picture on the face of the internets contained errors (more like my Firefox contained errors) and then yesterday as the boyfriend and I were playing Empire Earth, my computer kept locking the game up and kicking me out of it; which of course was very irritating since I had built an impressive amount of towers and then of course the enemy was coming over to knock them all down and I had to defend the land I had originally started talking from them, dammit! After we gave up on the game, the boyfriend noticed someone logging into PayPal from my computer, although I wasn’t checking it. After a six hour process of running virus scanners it turned out that I had not one virus, but thirteen! Thirteen viruses, six hours and now my computer is finally all clean and Firefox is acting normal again.

Updates on more important things to come.

Mother’s Day and the Release of No Trespassing

May 11, 2008 · Filed Under Art & Creativity, Life

no trespassing Today is Mother’s Day and no matter how hard I try to forget about this day, it still manages to come, mock me and leave for another year.

This day is by far a great day for most people–Mothers for one. It is also a great day for people to show their mothers how much they love and appreciate everything that they have done them. However, sometimes you get that special case where one day out of the year just doesn’t mean the same to someone as it does to others; and Mother’s Day is that day for me.

I have not seen my mother in almost a decade. No, she isn’t dead, but she may as well be. My mother was not like most out there. My mother was a child abuser. She was a child sex trafficker and a child molester. She was (and still is) a drug addict and an alcoholic. I stayed silent about so much that happened during my childhood for so many years and it was last year where I pretty much just deteriorated. My layers of walls that I had spent years of my life perfecting melted away and I started to talk about what I had gone through and that was the best time of my life. I had stayed silent for so long because I was afraid of what people would say, how they would see me and most of all, I was afraid of what the rest of my family would think about me. While I was still in my mother’s custody I had told her that I would tell on her some day and she said that no one would believe me and I believed her.

I still don’t know what the rest of my family thinks. I was never really given the opportunity to speak to them about all of this; whenever the subject of my mother has come up my grandmother would be the first one to say that she didn’t want to hear about anything because it made her upset to even think about what happened. My father, while I love him immensely, has never been one to show or voice his emotions and so the verdict is still out on that one. My aunt had talked to me very briefly about it, after reading an interview I had done with my local newspaper about being a survivor of child sexual abuse. Not being given the opportunity to actually speak to my family about my childhood, I decided to publish it in a newspaper and send it to the doorsteps of 70,000 people living in my area.

While I have undoubtedly progressed in this whole healing process (not to mention being raped when I was 18 at the one and only college party I had ever attended and starting the whole “healing process” over again,) I have quite a ways to go and with that, to further symbolize this day for me, my short film No Trespassing was released today. Both parts are below:





13 Things I Did While Not Working

May 1, 2008 · Filed Under Life

Thursday Thirteen To continue my last post, I thought I would participate in this week’s Thursday Thirteen, even though it is almost Friday. So here you go, here are thirteen things that I did today while I should have been working, but wasn’t.

  • Wrote down each and every thing I need to accomplish work-wise for the next week.
  • Spent a truly incredible amount of time on Twitter.
  • Did a lot of random blog hopping.
  • Ate two packets of Ramen. In fact, I seriously never want to see another packet of Ramen again given the number of packs I have eaten in the past week.
  • Watched Judge Maria Lopez–while eating Ramen.
  • Thought long and hard about playing Virtua Fighter 5 (most addicting video game ever, especially since I kick some–No, I kick a lot of ass at it) after Judge Maria Lopez was over.
  • Cursed the no coffee creamer having gods of the universe, making me switch from my usual coffee to water–with Pur Flavor Options.
  • Came to the conclusion that Pandora is one of the Best. Websites. Ever.
  • Checked my MySpace and marveled at the intimidating amount of people who have obviously lost their minds so early in life.
  • Got groceries–And nearly made love to the Creme Brulee Coffee-Mate coffee creamer.
  • Watched television with the boyfriend. (Hooray for quality time that we haven’t gotten to spend with each other much lately.)
  • Had sex. (*gasp*)
  • Came back to finish this post–You know, after the television-watching and sex-having.

I Need a Change of Scenery

May 1, 2008 · Filed Under Life

Or at least I think that’s my problem. Really, I don’t know what it is, but something definitely must change around these parts or I’m going to be a poor (yes, I believe with this economy it may be possible to be more poor than I already am) and very, very sad woman. The first order of business, you know, as soon as I hit the lottery is to get a laptop so I am no longer chained to a desk in a room that keeps getting smaller as the hours pass right on by.

Here’s a little look into my day job. I have been sitting here for over four hours trying to get a website for a client done. Now, these past four hours are only a glimpse into the amount of time I have spent trying to get this website done; really, it has been three days. Three days! Three days and I have a background image done–I think I’ve made amazing progress, don’t you?

My feminist coverage as of late has been shotty, to put it in the most “socially acceptable” terms and I will work on putting more time into bringing you, the viewers, my various responses to several fucked up things going on in the world.

And since I am now incredibly too far behind on all of my work, I shall see you folks later. Send inspiration and motivation if you have any to spare.

Pennsylvania Primary Day

April 22, 2008 · Filed Under Life, Politics

Today marks the day of the presidential primary in Pennsylvania. I have been looking forward to this day since reading websites talking about Super Tuesday. I have done my research, know who I’m voting for, knew I had to get my state ID renewed since it is almost six months expired, I thought I had everything in order.

I decided that I would go and renew my ID yesterday since the boyfriend’s driver’s license needs to be renewed and while looking up the business hours for the DMV, I read that I couldn’t just show up and get my ID renewed. Where was I when they decided these rules? I just showed up and got my ID initially, why do I need to mail out some papers and wait for them to mail me back papers and make an appointment now that I want to renew it? I call shenanigans!

So since I am without identification to go along with my little slip of paper saying I can vote, I can’t and I am pissed! I love voting; I take my right to vote very seriously and of course this would happen. So if anyone out there lives in Pennsylvania and didn’t plan on voting, why don’t you go out and vote for Obama for me so I can feel like I kinda sorta voted? That’d be just swell, thanks.

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